I must report my extraordinary experience of yesterday. It swept through my being like a great tide. I would have immediately recorded it, but a feeling of being overwhelmed made me unwilling to write, or in fact, do anything else but meditate or sleep.
In meditating as I often do upon the depth of the worlds' ills, an inner turmoil is sometimes the result.. All of the worlds' problems DO have their concrete and relatively simple solutions, to be certain. Knowing this however is not as easy is implementing what must be done to enlighten this world from the currently Dark Age of consumerism and materialism. The burden of finding such a remedy for the human condition, fraught as it is with pain and fear, quite often weighs heavily upon my soul. As a soul I know I have the capacity to create significant, spiritual revolution in the world. Even as a mind do I see the opportunity for saving human beings from a measure of the negative karma of past millennia. But regardless of this I sometimes feel deep lament and pain for the world as it is, not just for a confused humanity, but for the suffering that travels through nature that is caused by them. Much of the pain of realization resides in the very clear knowledge that international and interpersonal relations alike, ABSOLUTELY DO NOT NEED TO BE THIS WAY. What we see today as the "norm" is both unnatural and contrary to universal designs.
Lamenting these facts, I felt suddenly compelled to lay upon the short loop of dirt road, of about 80 yards in diameter, which circles near my camp. I'd been feeling truly at a loss as to how to write in ways that would convey the truth of life to most people, for weeks on end. I cried for humanity at that moment under a cloudy sky, in a strangely somber and peaceful way. Unexpectedly, an intuitive message simply presented itself fully formed in my mind. The message was composed of but a few words, and these I quote as follows, "Align with God" it said, "and draw strength from this". There was such certainty of purpose and deep feeling behind those words, so I did enthusiastically call upon the presence of God with all of my being. The result was at first only a distant feeling of what might be called "presence", which became more and more distinct with each passing moment, combined with a felt, high feeling. But after about fifteen minutes of staring upward through the branches of tall trees, and into the rolling clouds above, there rose up within me a sense of profound love. This love was most unusual. It was not typical of my usual, daily state of consciousness, and yet was strongly familiar at the same time. I had mostly forgotten it in this life, but the remarkable qualities of that feeling struck a chord with my soul, which seemed more like "home" than any place or state I had ever known. It was a deep, wide and expansive love felt all over the body and soul alike, but saying this does not do justice to the moment. To say that it was of such excellence that the finest orgasm combined with the most passionate romantic love, could only pale in on comparison, would be only a starting point.
This love could only be Divine without any doubt whatsoever and it filled me as a dry sponge is filled to capacity, and then kept on streaming in. The issue of "worthiness" kept creeping into my mind, and whether or not that was appropriate I do not know. Never the less, I endeavored to be worthy of this Love-gift with great inner focus, and sought with some success to purify my intent, so as to accommodate and be transformed by, this Love. Its' intensity was such that I wept out of release, relief and joy. Yet this did offer any real release from that great in-pouring of feeling, any more than a tiny pier could stand against a tsunami. Rather, I was compelled, (to say the least) to channel that enormous excess of feeling and energy, first to the local woods, then to the entire region here in southern Oregon, (and its' attendant Earth Consciousness) and then to all people worldwide. This helped to alleviate the feeling of spiritual pressure, for lack of a better term, like floodwaters behind a great dam is helped by opening flood gates. At certain moments though, even these measures were not enough to channel away the excess of love. During certain moments I was intuitively prompted to visualize in my minds' eye the entire Earth as if viewed from space, and to create great sparkling columns of love cascading down from the upper atmosphere. Such a visualization was not a creation of my mind, so much as a spontaneous thoughtform inserted into my being from elsewhere. The base of these columns must have been several hundred miles in diameter, branching, replicating and dividing like the limbs of great trees in geometric precision, until they entered every living being upon this world. I FELT this to be so. The rendered effects were intuitively unmistakable. I felt the Love of God being manifest throughout the world in this way, and was told that such INTENT could be used to even greater success by groups of people similarly focused together. Although I am not prone to emotionalism, I wept again, just due to the sheer intensity of the event.
At that moment, the certainty of God-connection and the carrying out of Divine will on Earth were mine. I knew this Will, along with the Seeing of the purpose of life, and how it can best be fulfilled as a human being. Clear to me was the fact that God is consciousness, and consciousness is God. As souls we also are composed of consciousness, making us "God Force fragments" and part of the unified field of consciousness planet-wide. As centers of consciousness we have lasting identity even beyond these physical bodies. Unfortunately, the knowing of this firsthand through direct and repeated experience, is far different than knowing such matters only from a theoretical basis. It occurred to me that such direct experiences are the true basis of theology, not the study of scriptures, commentaries on scriptures, or the dry repetition of rituals or phrases. Nor is theology even the study of opinions of very noteworthy persons such as Saints or Mystics who had such direct experiences. There is no better way to see a color or hear a sound than to behold it personally, and no amount of explanation by even the most inspired "Holy" books can convey the direct experience of Consciousness, (God) by the same token. As self directing fragments of that which is called, "God" it is our most profound need to both recognize self as soul, and understand the belonging of soul to God, (Consciousness) in the same manner as the individual cell belongs to the body. This is not theory, it is a demonstrable fact to those who would only take the time and energy to See it. One ideal method for such revelation is of course, meditation.
About 45 minutes into the meditation, two phrases popped into my mind at the behest of this profound Love. They were, "God Force" and, "God Agent", (or "Agent of God"). Along with these words came a remembrance of their practical meaning. God Force or Consciousness itself, is what can be felt flowing through all the forms of nature, such as a group of trees or grassy field. It is what composes what I refer to as the "Earth Mind", though that collective is a much larger fragment of God than we are as individuals. Consciousness/God Force is also that same essence which is felt flowing from person to person in any group. It is especially evident in an emotionally charged atmosphere, such as a sporting event, fervent prayer meeting or meditation group, and it is even that energy which can be felt during sex. This fact can be consciously experienced firsthand by anyone who remains attentive to internal and environmental feelings. It is this essence which is of such "sameness" as that which composes others and nature alike, that it could in very realistic way be called SELF, a realization which originates the ancient phrase, "I AM THAT".
Recognizing self as soul/consciousness, is just one major step along the pathway of self-realization. The next and greater step is for the individual to realize that they are in fact a fragment of God, just as the various colors shed by a prism or refracted in a rainbow are fragments of white light. Further still on this Path is to realize that ALL people, ALL souls, and ALL forms of life are to some degree fragments of this greater whole, whose collective presence we call, "God". One step further yet in one's spiritual development comes upon realizing that as a fragment of God which is self knowing, we have within our power to consciously take on those goals and even methods, (to a very minor degree, obviously) which God Itself acts through. Primary among the goals of God is the expansion of consciousness. In terms of "method", foremost in the expansion of consciousness is the raising of INTENT. "Motive force" is also another term for what intent really is and does. The raising of intent means achieving or acquiring higher and higher levels of motive force in one's life and in everything they do. It refers to the purification of ones' moment to moment motives every day, with the ultimate goal of uplifting all souls and all life, in the ever greater expression and manifestation of excellence. The raising of intent is in fact the central engine behind the evolution of life. To consciously take on these Divine goals and methods then, is to become an Agent of God, whereby Divine Will actually flows through a person's life, to animate their accomplishments for the sake of good with an unmistakably spectacular hue. It is a very high act of spiritual ministry to inform others of this great Cosmic Cause of which we are all participants. It is an even greater act to INSPIRE others to become the living Agents of God while they are still in a physical body, and while still incarnated within a primitive age.
After about an hour I finally a rose from lying on the ground, and returned to my camp. I managed to do this while maintaining a very elated euphoria, but with great effort. My body felt as if it was experiencing a variable state of shock. I rested there in my van for about 30 minutes, and then an unexpected resurgence of energy infused my being. This energy was of such a dynamic type that my lethargy and shock totally reversed. I got out a small stereo with some drumming music, and stood next to a natural fire pit by my tent. There I felt compelled to dance in a way I could only describe as, "shaman-like" with rhythmic movements. My level of consciousness shifted up and down tremendously with each passing five minute period, with the lowest level being that of what might be called, "the archetypal shaman" and the highest being somewhere around what might be referred to as a, High Master" or perhaps "Avatar". [Most of my meditations of late have in fact been of an extremely high nature, and they continue to build and compound in effect upon one another.]
As I danced there occurred the compulsion to intone various notes at the same time, (briefly, intonation is the holding of sustained sounds with the voice, usually through an entire exhalation) ranging from a high "E" and moving all the way down the scale to a low "M". I also picked up two staff-like pieces of wood, each about 4 feet long, which I found around the loop here. Each had been burned to a point at one end, with one being curved and the other straight. [From previous experiences over the years, I'm very familiar with the use of a staff in the "casting" (projection) of energy. They are an excellent tool for spiritual work of all kinds. The staff can be used for the casting of high intent and raising, as well as the manifestation of the high much like a radio transmission antenna.] I held one in each hand, and with them could very readily intend the outflow or influx of energy at will. I was intuitively compelled to cast or radiate through the curved staff, with the effect of reaching with the love of God out into the human world. I felt enormously powerful waves of force radiating outward for what felt like hundreds of miles in all directions. Around the around I danced while intoning notes, in ways that reminded me first of shamanic rituals and then of lives on other worlds. I felt the ancientness of my soul.. In each life I've always had a spiritual focus first and foremost, at least as far back as my soulic memory readily permits.
There were even a few moments where I cast high intent worldwide, sometimes using the consciousness of the local forest as a psychic ally and broadcasting medium. There is no mistaking the psychic effects so created. On Saturday May 8th, 2004, I did create tremendous waves of consciousness-raising intent worldwide at the prompting of God. I doubt that there was a single person anywhere in this planet at that moment, who did not feel some shift of surrounding feeling, especially around 5-8 PM Pacific Standard Time.
My level of consciousness continued to rise and fall for some time after 8 PM, but my psychic/spiritual power diminished steadily. Although my casting/raising sessions become increasingly more potent, the drain of manifesting high intentions on my being can be considerable. Not only is the casting and raising of high intent hard work, it is made all the more difficult by the state of the modern world. As a word to the wise, any projection of love, clarity or other high states of consciousness into society as a whole, implicitly takes on, (dissipates) millenniums of human karma to some degree. It is a tremendous undertaking needless to say. There are various occasions where I wish that I had dependable allies or by another name, "spiritual co-workers" on hand, who possessed such ability, with whom I might cast and raise in tandem. But that time if is yet to come upon this world, is not yet manifest. I MUST convert others to these techniques and this CAUSE of CAUSES, in order to carry through both the fulfillment of my soul's desire, and the Intent of God.
Matthew Webb visionquest@eoni.com
The World Mind Society http://www.eoni.com/~visionquest
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